Monday, January 30, 2012

Help me win a contest!!!

Help me win a contest! If you're a Facebooker, go to the following link and "like" the picture of my kitty Kane! Her cuteness, and your likes, will help me win some awesome multivitamins!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Feeling good!

I'll start by saying that my weight loss hasn't been what I'd hoped for January, but it's a pretty good average for a month (down about 10 pounds so far)!  2012 is definitely looking a lot better for weight loss than 2011, although I need to continue to get my calories under control.  I am proud of myself, though, for doing so good at keeping my caloric burn and workout routine!  I've never had a "routine," nor have I ever focused much on the whole "exercise" portion of this journey.  Since joining a women's gym a few weeks ago, though, I'm proud to say that I've been making exercise a real part of my life.  I'm enjoying group classes, have enjoyed my free one-on-one training sessions and actually enjoy some solitary cardio with my mp3 player in my ears!  Although building muscle, which I'm sure I've been doing this month, doesn't help with weight loss initially, I know that building that muscle will help my body burn more calories overall.  Essentially, I can't complain...I'm proud of the 2012 me and can only hope (well, "hope" is really the wrong word since it's up to me) that I can continue 2012 in the same manner it's goal weight and body are bound to hit me in 2012 if I keep this up!

Life really is starting to feel like it's controllable.  Despite a slipped LapBand, I'm not making excuses.  I'm focusing on protein and calories in my food, keeping up with laundry and housework, working on my financial health, getting my daily/weekly recommended amounts of water (new focus for me!), actually taking my multivitamins every day (another new one for me!) and incorporating exercise and "me time" into my life.  I've always been a workaholic, but I know that giving 100% of myself to my work doesn't leave any percentage left for me.  While I feel slight anxiety for leaving things at work unfinished for another day, I know this investment I'm making into me (putting gym classes into my calendar, for instance, forcing me to actually leave the office) is worth it's weight in gold.  What are YOU doing to improve YOU in 2012?

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Health Month

In my continued effort to stay on the bandwagon (trying to reach my goal weight by my 32nd birthday, which means I need to lose 2 pounds a week until it happens on August 28, 2012), I've tried to find new ways to motivate myself:

1. Health Month (talked about it in my last post, but I'm doing it again!) - This is a little online game I play daily that allows you to set rules for yourself to follow.  You can create a maximum of three rules to play for free, so I did!  For the month of January (you play a new game each month), my goals were to exercise 5x a week for a minimum of 30 minutes, drink 60 glasses of water a week and stay under my recommended calories (for me, a minimum of a 1,000 calorie deficit vs. what I burn - thanks bodybugg!) 5x a week.  I log in each morning to check in on the previous day's results, and I'm absolutely honest!  If you're on track, you earn points and fruit.  If you're not, you lose life points (you start with 10 each month) - fruit can heal you (and others!) if you've lost life points.  You can also communicate with people, heal others, get healed, seek advice, etc. on the game wall.  It's fairly simple to understand once you play with it, and it really is working to motivate me on those three things!  It's somewhat silly that a trivial game on the internet actually forces me to do the things I want to be doing...but whatever works, eh?  If you try out Health Month and decide to play (or are already playing), let me know so I can add you to my list of friends!

2. Ongoing Exercise - In an effort to USE the gym membership I'm paying for (a first for me!) and keep up with Health Month, I'm actually putting gym classes into my busy calendar so that I can be reminded of when to hit the classes I want to go to!  I try to put something in my calendar every day - whether it's a class at the gym, workout time or Personal Training sessions with my trainer.  I met with my trainer for the first time yesterday and enjoyed learning about the weight machines and exercises I could do to help strengthen my target areas - I've never done much on my own because I didn't know what to do and didn't know how to operate those machines effectively.  She's got me on a plan for the week and I see her again on Friday!  I can't afford PT sessions once these free sessions that I got for joining the gym expire, but I'm hoping to work some group PT sessions into my budget!

3. Smoking - Yes, after 34 days of not having a single puff of smoke, I've picked it back up.  Why?  Well, I found that those 34 days were wrought with frequent snacking, mourning the habit and general unhappiness.  Isn't quitting smoking supposed to make you proud of yourself and happy in the new lifestyle?  It wasn't.  Not for me.  While I realize smoking is horrible for me, being able to go out and have a cigarette is part of what has kept me calm and away from snacking since beginning my weight loss journey.  I recognize the pile of excuses I'm making here, but it's the decision I've made for myself.  I'm not smoking as much as I used to, and I'm trying to stick to that, but it really is helping me to keep my mind and fingers off of the food that was killing my weight loss plan.  I fell into a deep food depression in Nov/Dec of 2011 after getting the news of my slipped LapBand and the denied surgery from my insurance company - it's funny how I can snack on little things that are horrible for me all day (candy, chips, etc.), but I can't eat anything in large portions without regurgitation.  It's a horrible way to live, but that's what I did to myself...and 25 pounds came back on in the process.  I refuse to let it get the best of me, and smoking seems to be my coping mechanism to help with that (yes, an excuse).  I don't know...maybe if Nick were to finally move in with me, I'd have something else to occupy my brain and hands!!  Someday...for now, this is my decision...for better or worse.

Ta da!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Another Year, Another Readjusted Attitude!

So it's 2012.  I've had a LapBand for two years now, but it's been slipped for 3 months and impacting both my ability to eat a majority of foods and my attitude.  I remember being down to a low of 216 pounds, but coming home from Winter Break found me back up to 241 pounds.  I put on 25 pounds?!  How is that even possible with all of the regurgitation I do on a daily basis?  I'll tell ya how - beverages and crunchy foods (read: chips, cheeseballs, etc.) go down fairly well!  Funny that I can't stomach real foods (lettuce, bread, tomato, etc.), but I can handle the crap!

A 25 pound gain was the result of that bad attitude, and I refuse to let it continue to get the best of me.  I joined a gym last weekend - the apartment's mini-gym wasn't cutting it for me anymore and I knew I needed help learning how to tone up as I lost these last pounds in my journey.  Since joining Saturday I've already met with a trainer to get measured and establish my goals, and I've participated in a "Cardio Fusion" class (alternating strength training and cardio exercises for an hour) which literally kicked my ass (no, really, we did hamstring kicks and kicked our own ass)...I'm still sore all over, in muscle groups I didn't know I had, from that class on Sunday.

I'm also playing Health Month - a little online game where  you establish rules for yourself to follow.  You've got to check in every day to verify which rules you're following, and you either lose or gain points in the game for holding yourself accountable.  My three rules include working out for at least 30 minutes five times a week, drinking at least 60 glasses of water per week and staying within my recommended calories at least five times a week.  So far I've kicked ass on the workout one (I've worked out every day of 2012 except for two, one of them being the day I traveled home from break) and the water, which is quite a feat for someone who hardly EVER drank water prior to this little game!  I'm having trouble with the calories, but that's more mental than anything else.  Regardless, I'm already down 7.8 pounds in I'll take it!

I'm part of a Facebook group (Healthy in 2012 with The Bariatric Guru!) that is full of weight loss wannabe's (surgical and non) who work together to address stumbling blocks, motivation, etc.  Our first "project" was to create our own Vision Board, helping us to visualize what we wanted 2012 to be for us.  I'll admit, it was a neat endeavor...and mine is bee-yoo-tee-ful:


I also put it as the desktop picture on both my home and work computers and on my cell phone - so I'm motivated by my own visualizations everywhere I go!

Soooo...Happy New Year to EVERYONE!  Hope you've made some changes in the first ten days of 2012 that you intend to stick with - whether it be mental, physical or food related.  Remember, you're only as strong as you choose to be :).

(P.S. It SNOWED here yesterday and actually stuck to the ground - my first time since being a resident of the East Coast!  Didn't see this in Southern California!!)