Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Moving to Virginia!

What a whirlwind past week it's been...sister got married (only went up 0.6 pounds over the entire three days - not bad!), and I was offered a job with the Virginia Education Association as a UniServ Director in Fairfax!  It's a little insane...I accepted the job Monday morning, went into my work and resigned from my job, headed to my apartment complex office to put in a 30-day notice, reserved a moving truck (full service move - yay!)...and now it's a matter of packing up a classroom I've been in for 8 years and an apartment I've been in for 5 years.  I'm not taking much with me (most of the furniture I own isn't worth hauling across the country), so I've also been listing items on Craigslist and have had a variety of people over to buy and haul out my crap!  Salvation Army truck comes on Saturday to pick up the rest of the stuff I don't want/sell...yeesh.  It's crazy to think that I won't be teaching high school anymore, won't be supervising livestock projects, etc.  It's time for a new adventure!

P.S. I don't think it's really going to "hit me" until I'm actually on the road - driving across country with 2 kitties in my car - in the beginning of July...

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Heading to a wedding!

No, not sister's.  I'm heading south a couple of hours today for the bachelorette gathering, rehearsal and dinner tomorrow night and then the wedding on Saturday.  To be honest, I'm a bit leery of the whole thing - I've been doing SO GOOD tracking my calories in/out...I'm down to 226 pounds today (the weight loss slowed after the initial spurt, which I knew it would) and I DREAD returning to the 230's because of a family occasion.

I've already decided that drinking is out of the question for the weekend - perhaps a Bud Light or a glass of champagne here and there, but I know those calories can add up quickly.  In addition to that, I know that if I start drinking...eating of all the finger foods comes, too!  In addition, I'm not completely stoked about the fact that we have dinner reservations tonight at a place whose menu has no nutritional facts (yes, I tried to e-mail them - no response), looks completely horrible for you, etc.  Although I won't know calorie counts for the weekend, I'm still determined to be one of those picky order-ers and demand that I eat as healthy as I know possible!

The 230's have haunted me for months.  I refuse to let this wedding weekend slow my progress!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Lowest weight EVAR!!!!

Yes, I know I spelled it wrong...but I'm stoked!  Back on March 23rd of this year, I weighed in at 227.4 pounds and was excited for the future.  But April and May brought a period of frustration for me - frustrated with my LapBand issues, stressful amount of workaholic overworked-ness, stress on job prospects and life in general - I gave up.  I did a great job maintaining my weight, weighing in at 232.6 pounds on June 2nd...but I was more than disappointed to see that I had gone so long with not doing much of anything in relation to weight loss.  Obviously, my band is still working to some degree, but that big lack of personal accountability I'd been talking about in recent blog posts was missing.

I'm stoked today to have weighed in at 227.0 - my lowest weight since beginning my journey!  This time?  No looking back (or, bouncing back, as it were)!  I'm determined to keep going, keep monitoring myself...and I can't "weight" to see myself in the BMI "overweight" category when I get below 203 pounds!  Deadline?  My 31st birthday - August 28th.  Despite the craziness that this summer will surely bring, this could actually be the summer where I say goodbye to the "obese" Joia!!!  Holy hell.

Friday, June 10, 2011

I'm not hungry... why do I want to eat?  I've been really good since getting home on Wednesday - counting every calorie that goes into my mouth, wearing my bodybugg to track my burn...and it's paid off with some weight loss just in the past two days!  Tomorrow?  I may finally be at the lowest weight since starting my journey...and, this time, I don't plan on going back up to the 230's!

Being home with nothing on the calendar sure has it's pitfalls, though.  While I've enjoyed the time to clean my house, cook food, etc...I get bored.  A workaholic/foodaholic is dangerous with nothing to do.  I really wanted ice cream last night, and even went to the grocery store (also had to return a Redbox movie), but couldn't bring myself to buy any ice cream after picking up nearly half a dozen cartons and looking at their calorie content.  I opted for those Yoplait frozen fruit smoothie deals instead...satisfied when I came home to a delicious, creamy, low-in-calorie snack.  I was proud of myself for making that choice.

Today?  I found myself bored again, but knowing that I had recently eaten, - and was full, mind you - I decided to utilize my Wii Fit Plus game and did an hour of activity.  Wow...who am I?  And where has Joia gone?  Truth be told, it was all about the bodybugg again - having been generally sedentary for the first half of the day, and knowing the rest of my day was going to be more of the same, I knew I wouldn't hit my calorie burn if I didn't get up and move.

Bottom line...the bodybugg is a wonderful tool if you need something to help you be accountable to yourself.  As much as I hate counting calories, I love numbers.  I love seeing the exact calorie burn versus intake and knowing that my target deficit of 1,100 calories a day will not only make me feel good about sticking to the plan, but also makes that scale move.  Amazing what eating less and moving more will do for ya, eh?

I'm not hungry, nor could my LapBand hold any more food at this point - I'm still full from the lunch and snack I had several hours ago. head hunger needs to knock itself off.  Seriously.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Current status...

I'm up in the air on where I will be living in the next few months, and it all depends on where I end up taking a new job (if I get a new job).  As such, I've resigned myself to the fact that I have to work with my current doctor and try to get this band fixed...there's no point in switching practices if the odds are that I'll be moving.  I'm tired of being stuck at the 230 mark, bouncing back and forth a pound or two like a yo-yo.  The last few weeks have been insane on my work schedule (yeah, yeah...excuses), but it's finally summer vacation for this teacher (still work to be done, but scheduled at my own pace) and I'm ready to pay attention to me again.  I'm doing good today - calories are logged, bodybugg's counting my output, and I even fit in some Biggest Loser and Zumba on my Wii tonight!  Ooo - and I'm drinking WATER.  Oh, oh - and I totally went to the grocery store to stock up on milk and proteins to eat while I'm home for the next week!

My doctor is still only doing barium swallow tests on Thursday mornings in Los Angeles...yes, I'm free tomorrow...but just spent the last week between Los Angeles, Washington D.C. and Virginia - I really don't feel like traveling the 100 miles to and from LA tomorrow.  Next Thursday would work out perfectly - I have to be in the LA area for my sister's wedding...of course, the doctor is taking his first vacation in two years next week.  :::le sigh:::  At this point, it looks like I'll do the barium swallow on the 23rd, barring any potential travel plans to see my boyfriend (which MUST work into my summer!!).  I'd really like to find out if this band has flipped, get whatever's been wrong fixed, and get back on the right track.

But...and it's a big but...I know this ultimately comes back to my personal accountability.  If I'm honest with myself, I know it's been sorely lacking.  Time to take this one day at a time, count the input/output calories and make this goal weight happen!!  It will happen before the end of 2011!